Today I was struck with the fact that God really does not keep a record of of my sin.
Psalms 130:3 -- Lord, if you kept a record of our sins, who, O Lord, could ever survive?
Okay, but do I really live this way? I am the one that keeps the record of my sin as well as those around me. Living in shame causes isolation and Jesus is all about connection. The more I feel captivated by my failures the more isolated I become and less connected to the one that gives total and complete forgiveness. Although, I may feel isolated in those times of shame, I know that God is so connected to me that He shows up even in places that I do not want Him to. Do I really believe God does what He promises He does?
I John 1:9 -- If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
Why is it that I have such a hard time admitting that I sin? Why can I not be upfront with the fact that I am no better than anyone else? We all have sinned, there is not one person I know that is free from that. I have to rest in the fact that I do know the ONE that is about forgiveness. Now, I will try to believe that.